Hayley Williams, the former lead singer of Paramore, is opening up about her divorce from husband Chad Gilbert and why she went to rehab.
The 31-year-old singer said that the stress from the breakup led her to having “f–ked up” dreams and those led to panic attacks.
“They’re pretty f–ked. There’s often water in my dreams. I’ve always written about relationships using water metaphors. My most memorable recurring dreams from childhood are all water related,” Hayley told Vulture. “I started to have a lot of those again. It resulted in me having panic attacks, and I ended up in a hospital. I’d faint.”
Hayley and Chad, known for being part of the band New Found Glory, announced their separation in 2017 and she later checked into a facility to deal with the stress.
“It’s been a slow lesson for me — how much power our emotions have on our physical health. It started to happen because I was in denial,” she told the outlet. “I found a facility where I could go and be in a safe group or by myself and talk… Talk therapy has been more important for me than medicine.”
Hayley realizes now that she shouldn’t have married Chad, but she knows why she did it.
“I went through with the marriage because I had a lot of shame about mistakes I’d made. I got into that relationship prematurely. He was not divorced [from his previous wife] yet. I was very lonely,” she said.